August 13th, 2003

nothing lasts for ever

i realized...

...i was actually hoping you would never come back.
so i would never have to do this.
i'm sorry.
i can't.
hurts too much.
don't want to hurt like that ever again.
don't want to hurt you like that either.
i'm back to my old cynical self.
no commitment.
no attachment.
i'm not dreaming of happily ever afters anymore.
can't hold you back; you deserve beter than that.
and the fact i still have feelings for you doesn't help at all...